A really bad time :) pls help me?

Research shows it takes 3 months for a new person to become comfortable with a new job. Please, get plenty of sleep, eat well, take relaxing baths and tell yourself "I am perfect for this job, doing important work and well prepared." Look in the mirror and tell yourself that over and over. Please hang in there. I have called the suicide prevention hot line (when I am not suicidal) but need emotional support and gotten great help. I pray and tell God I am desperate and plead for his help. I also thank him for the job and pray for every one at the job. There are a lot of us rooting for you and all those children who will be helped by you. Gratitude helps me when I get stuck in fear. You can do this, we know you can!